A long time ago i never knew myself. then the memory
Of shame birthed its gift.
No more. the small one, the weak one, the frightened one.
Running from beatings, deflating. i'm becoming more
Than a man. more than you ever were. driven and burning
To rise beyond jesus.
I'm born again with snakes eyes
Becoming godsize
I found my life was slipping through my hands. perhaps
Through death my life won't be so bad.
I can see you, can fuck you, inside of you. staring through
Your eyes. belittle your friends to serve me, to suck me,
To realize my saving grasp. i of suicide. i the unlord.
